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Fixing My Future with the Broken Pieces of My Past (Last Chapter)
Title: Fixing My Future with the Broken Pieces of My Past
Genre: Brotherhood, friendship, angst
Rating: G(Include curses and harsh words)
Summary: Having a brilliant and perfect fraternal twins who is 180 degrees different from him forced the 16 years old Miyamoto Kazunari to grow up with a harsh and cold treatment by people around. At first, he had Jun who's the only person that close to him despite of their uncommonness. But after a cold incident occured between them, Kazunari chooses to never put a faith with anyone else anymore.
This story reveal in how a guy who always known as a 'rotten apple in eye' try to rebuild his broken life again.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING, but the PLOT
Have you ever thought that whatever decision you make or whatever choice you choose today will decide on what you’ll be one day?
Seriously, even though I realize it, I never think about it so deeply. Most of the choices that I made since I was small till this second are actually only based on either my current emotion or something that I believe won’t cause any trouble to others or my own self.
However,
Is emotion and logically thinking are the only way of deciding on your future, your own life or your relationship with someone that important for you in this world? Cause…sometimes, I wonder why there’s ‘a person’ in this world that gives a shorter time to think seriously about his or her significant life than the time that he or she spends to enjoy with their youth life which definitely will end one day. Well, it’s a common anyway, right? People usually afraid to sacrifice what they’ve now as an exchange with something that worthier for them to have one day.
Hard to understand?
Hehehe. Not only you, cause me also.
Recently, my mind packed with a lot of possibilities like; what will happen to ‘the me’ now IF Jun didn’t take a step back from me back then? What will happen to ‘the me’ today IF I choose to ignore Jun’s action before and just get along with
him like nothing happen?
And, what IF I didn’t help Aiba back then? What IF I’m not trying to commit suicide before? What IF Aiba never came to help me? What IF I never be honest to Aiba and Ohno about my feelings?
Since I was a kid, I never know what friendship is. I already forget what parents’ love is. And I keep receiving nothing but glare, judgemental looking or discrimination by people around me.
But the past will stay as a past. Whether you like it or otherwise, it can’t be changed anymore.
“Kazunari-CHAN~”
I rolled my body immediately to lie on my stomach on the rooftop.
“I told you NO CHAN.”
But Aiba just giggled.
Oh, yeah. How I wish I have a hair shaver right beside me now, so I’ll ‘help’ him to change into ‘Aiba the monk’!
“Ogura-sensei is looking for you. He thought you were skipping his class.”
“Eh?” I clumsily sat up. “But, didn’t the class monitor said before all the teachers have a meeting now?”
“But Sensei is really in the class now. So, hurry up!”
I got a huge surprise when Aiba suddenly grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the rooftop. Few times I almost lost my balance as I tried my best to follow his pace. SERIOUSLY, did he forget that he’s ex-school track athlete?!
Finally, I can see the class from our spot. But suddenly, Aiba pushed me to stand in front of the door first. As he holds my shoulders from behind, I looked at him with a frown.
“What-”
“It’s better if you go inside first.”
Hmm…
He’s right.
So, I immediately grabbed the door’s holder and slid it open.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!”
“Eh?”
Sounds of crackers and applauses stunned me on the spot. All my classmates now were standing around me with a huge smile on their faces.
W-What? E-Eh?
“Hurry up~ let’s blow out the candles and cut your cake!”
Aiba then pushed me to enter the class as my classmates already moved aside to give me a way. Meanwhile, I still couldn’t mutter any word or letter from my lips. As I already stood in front of a strawberry cream cake with ‘happy cool 17’ written on it, all of them applauses louder for me. Even the candles on the cake already lighten up and only waiting for me to blow them.
“Blow it out, blow it out.”
I heard Ohno whispered beside me. Awkwardly, I turned to him before finally moved my mouth closer to the cake. I can hear the whole class still clapping and cheering me up rhythmically; echoing loudly the class with their voices.
Then, I exhaled the air out from my mouth.
“YEAH! HAPPY COOL 17, KAZUNARI-KUN!!!”
I stunned as they gave me another huge applauses after it. Feel super embarrassed with their treatment, I just scratched my head with a force smile. Suddenly, Aiba dragged me from there to the already prepared chair at the center of the class with some of the male classmates lifted a table and the cake to beside me. I however just followed the flow as I still confused with what’s happening. It’s then when Nishikido suddenly came in with a group of classmates and stood in front me.
Awesome.
That’s the first thing that popped into my head when they started to sing me a song with Nishikido playing the guitar. One by one people inside here slowly followed them to sing it along and finally, ended with the whole class sang the chorus part except for me as I didn’t know the song so much.
I-I really hate to admit this but…I feel so touch and overwhelm by it. It’s just a year after I join them and they already make a grand celebration for me. Even dad and mom never does this for Jun and me before.
Slowly, I curved with a smile before followed the others to clap after they finished the song.
“Was it great?”
I nodded by Nishikido’s question. It somehow reminds me with the same question when he asked me to join their band year ago. Now however, I’m their former band mates. After the drugs incident, I decided to leave the band. Even though I’m not guilty, it will still give an effect to their band and perhaps will cause them for couldn’t make any performance if people find out that one of their guitarist has ‘something to do’ with drugs. But until now, I still practice with them sometimes. I even still play guitar and whenever I free, I’ll make a street performance in front of the pedestrians.
“So now, let’s cut the cake!”
And one of the girls beside gave me a cutter immediately. As I took it awkwardly, I turned to Aiba with a slight frown.
“Me…?”
“Of course! It’s your birthday after all!”
Slowly, I moved the cutter to the cake. Just when I almost touched it with the cutter tip, I turned to Aiba hesitantly. After he gave me another nod as a green light; I cut it very slowly while gritting hardly my teeth.
“Is this okay?”
I asked and gave the cutter back to the girl before.
“Yeay! Congratulations Kazunari-chan!!!” and again, he hugged me TIGHTLY for the…
I didn’t know how many times already.
“Aiba…I said NO CHAN and you’re killing me!”
“And I said I’m happy and congratulations Kazunari!”
Geez.
“Let's taste your cake first.”
“Yeah. But the cream is too much. Who choose this one?”
Aiba and Ohno hands up immediately.
“You guys are the closest people to Kazunari-kun and still didn’t know him well?”
“Hey! There’s no limit to get know better about your best friend, you know!”
“Such a lame excuse.”
The whole class burst out with a laugh. I meanwhile just smiled with my eyes still stared at them.
I wonder what about Jun’s celebration today.
The cake then was properly cut by my girl classmate before she passed me a plate of it while smiling.
“Umaii na~”
We just laughed when Ohno hungrily pouted.
As I dug and shoved the cake into my mouth, the whole class looked at me wonderingly; perhaps feel curious with the taste of the cake. And that’s when I realized that Aiba was swallowing hardly in front as I took another bite of the slice.
“…You want some, Aiba?”
He just bit his lower lip. The other guys immediately teased him while nudging his arm that finally forced him to nod at me.
Oh yeah.
Payback time.
Immediately, I got up, walked and hardly ‘slap’ Aiba’s face with the creamy plate. Just when I took my hand away, the class fell into a very deep silent for a while.
Err…
Was I doing it too much?
All of sudden, Aiba also curves with an evil smirk before swiftly made his way to the cake. I was accidentally seen that he’s grabbing for a small slice of cake on the table, so when he turned his body to face me and threw his cake, I move my head to aside immediately.
And…the ‘innocent’ person behind me got the straight hit.
“Ups…Sorry Ai-chan.”
Aiba’s face became totally white pale when the cream already stuck on the most facial lover’s face in my class. As Ai-chan licked the cream on the edge of her lips, she suddenly ran toward Aiba and picked for another slice beside him. However, just when the creamy cake almost touched Aiba’s face, Aiba suddenly dodged that made it got to another person’s face behind.
“HOW COULD YOU?!!!”
And the class suddenly turned to noisy and panic when you can see cream and cake were flying everywhere and anywhere. There’re some girls and guys who tried their best to avoid from the cream by left the class or hid under the table or teacher’s desk, but it then just led into a huge success. Well, after they’d been found out, they’re forcefully being dragged out and got harsher ‘punished’ from others.
I smiled widely.
What a nice memory before I graduate from this school next year. It’s really great if I have this kind of experience earlier as I think I still hasn’t spent my time much enough with them. But …IF I’ve through this earlier, I don’t think I’ll treasure this memory much than I am now too right?
“HEY!!! ARE YOU GUYS 71 YEARS OLD ALREADY?!!” Ogura-sensei’s face suddenly came up as the door harshly had been slid open.
“HUH?”
All of us frowned.
71 years old?
“Ah, I want to say 7 years old actually.” Sensei said that made us giggle immediately.
“Anyway, WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING NOW?!”
I startled by the shout; along with my other classmates. All of us just looked at our feet; not dare to return Sensei’s glare at all.
“Ohno-kun! Stop eating!”
“Um?”
Ohno looked up immediately with his mouth still munching the cake in his mouth. His hand was already holding the empty cake plate with his face plastered with cream here and there.
“U-i- w-id-you-h-ay-ho-m-ht-eing-h-en-h-ei?”
“Fine, fine. Just eat as much as you want.”
All of us burst with laugh immediately. Ohno meanwhile just stared at me confusedly; pleaded me to give him an answer. I however just shook my head with a smile.
“Actually, I want to see Kazunari-kun.”
Confusedly, I blinked my eyes. When Sensei had approached me close enough, he swung his arm immediately to my shoulder.
“Your family made a phone call before.”
~*~*~*~
Finally, I stood like a statue in front of the ward’s door. Just when I almost reached out for the doorknob, I startled on the spot.
Oh, sh*t.
I’m such a dumb*ss.
It’s actually no point for me to come to this hospital actually. After all, mom and dad mustn’t want to see my face anymore.
“Kazu?”
I jerked up by the voice and saw Jun was standing behind me with a medium-sized bag in his embrace.
“B-Bye.”
And I turned to the elevator’s way immediately.
“Wait!”
I stopped. Then, I heard sounds of Jun’s footsteps were approaching me from behind.
“Come on. We need to greet our new family member right?”
However, I didn’t answer him.
Of course I really want to...but…
“Let’s go inside? I haven’t seen her too. Dad called me before and asked me to bring some of mom’s clothes from home.”
That’s when I finally realized Jun was also still wearing his school’s uniform. He must be hurriedly ran back to home from his school back then.
“I-I can’t.”
“I understand.”
And he patted my shoulder.
“But, our little sister deserves to see your face, doesn’t she?”
I heavily sighed.
“I’ll come in with you. At least, just greet her and mom. Mom just fought between her life and death before.”
For a few minutes, we just stood in front there till I finally nodded in defeat by Jun continuously persuades. At the school before, Ogura-sensei told me that someone just made a phone call for me and said that my mom just gave a birth of a baby girl at the hospital. Fortunately, Ogura-sensei already informed about my family’s situation, so he promised that he won’t say anything about it or my whole classmates must be keep saying ‘congratulations’ or ‘be a good brother’ to me back then. It was like I didn’t appreciate if they wish me to, but…my family’s condition made me feel really hard to face it.
“Here we come.” Jun said it cheerfully beside as we enter the ward.
I noticed that mom and dad’s face slightly changed as Jun closed the door behind. I meanwhile immediately brought my face down; tried to avoid from exchange gaze with them.
Suddenly, dad sighed.
“That’s great both of you finally here. Come closer and greet your little sis.”
I looked up immediately.
Was it meant…dad was the one who called school before?
“C-Can I lift her, mom?”
Jun asked as he moved from my side. I saw he smiled happily when mom gave him a nod. Then, as slowly and carefully as he can, he touched the newborn sis and carried her in his arms. After that, Jun immediately moved closer to me; gave me a chance for a better view on our sis.
Wow.
She’s still red.
“You can touch her, Kazu.”
Mom said between her giggle; probably noticed that I looked a bit clumsy.
...Well, of course. I never have any experience with baby after all.
While swallowing hardly, I used my index finger to touch her soft cheek. I however immediately pulled away as I saw her moved a bit before continue to snore calmly in Jun’s hold.
“So small…”
“And cute, right?”
I looked up at Jun and saw he was smiling happily beside me. After returning his grin, I tried to have another touch on our little sis. So, as slow and silent as I can, I poked my finger on her tiny right hand.
But, I widened my eyes when she suddenly gripped on my finger.
“She likes you too, Kazu.”
I smiled by Jun’s small whisper. Only God knows how happy I am right now.
“Hi, little sis. This is Jun ni-chan. Let’s get along, kay?”
Then, Jun looked at me with a smile.
Err…
“Uh…”
Okay.
Relax, Kazunari. Take a deep breath.
Whew…
“H-Hello. This is Kazu ni-chan. Glad to meet you, little sis.”
And I felt the tiny sis gripped on my finger tighter than before.
“Honey, wasn’t it means all of them will celebrate their birthday on a same day?”
“Ah, that’s right.”
“This is cool. Seems, the three of us are twins.”
I heard mom, dad and Jun giggled together.
“Right, Kazu?”
But, I just bit my lower lip.
“Kazu?”
Slowly, my tears streamed down on my cheeks. As I curved with another smile, I moved another hand to her face.
~*~*~*~
“Congratulations for both these new big brothers!”
Sho cheerfully said while clapping his hands, followed by Aiba and Ohno. Both I and Jun just bumped into them when we
came out from the hospital building before.
“Is she cute?”
“Of course she is.”
“Anyway, where are we heading to?”
“To celebrate you guys birthday~”
“Eh?”
The two of us turned to the three guys in disbelieve.
“Sushi?”
“Oi. Do you think we’re producing money machine?”
I just smiled when they started to burst with laugh. As I followed their pace from behind, I saw a guy who looked like a thug was walking on the alley behind us not afar. Hardly, I just bit my lower lip as I noticed that whenever a group of girls or guys seen him, they will definitely moved aside or made a disgusted face on him.
All of a sudden, I saw a group of school’s uniform wearers ‘accidently’ bumped into him.
“Ah, Sorry~”
They said before laugh amusingly and took their leave. The guy before however didn’t say anything but whined painfully on the ground.
Slowly, I stepped toward him.
“Don’t show your weakness in front of them.”
“Eh?”
Without answering his questioning stare, I just grabbed his arm and pulled him to get back on his feet.
“No matter what they have done to you, don’t fight back or show whether you’re hurt or not.”
He still looked at me with a frown. I however just slightly smile before patted his shoulder and walked to already waiting Jun, Aiba, Ohno and Sho in front.
“Kazu?”
“What did you said to him?”
I just returned their questioning gaze with a chuckle before turned back to the front.
“What did you tell him?”
“Nothing.”
And I laughed when the four of them started to beg me for answer them. However, I managed to ignore it with a sarcastic smile.
Everyone has their own different experiences of life. Anyone might face the same situation like me when he or she is still small, teenagers, growing up or now.
But, that’s what making us different.
The more hardships we face, the more sacrifice we do and the more patience we become, it’ll train us to be stronger and stronger. Till one day, when we finally able to smile from the bottom our heart as long as we don’t give up…
Right?
“Kazunari-chan~ tell me, tell me.”
“No chan!”
~*~*~*~
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Btw, I'll be hiatus for 3 months after this...(yeah, I know, AGAIN right?) To be honest, I actually want to post this story for every 2 or 3 days, but after I counted that I've not enough days till I off to (PLKN) this 3 January, I change my mind. Thank You VERY VERY VERY VERY much for keep reading and for your opinion and comments. It's really encourage me to keep writting! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU and THANK YOU once again.
Till we meet again!
Genre: Brotherhood, friendship, angst
Rating: G(Include curses and harsh words)
Summary: Having a brilliant and perfect fraternal twins who is 180 degrees different from him forced the 16 years old Miyamoto Kazunari to grow up with a harsh and cold treatment by people around. At first, he had Jun who's the only person that close to him despite of their uncommonness. But after a cold incident occured between them, Kazunari chooses to never put a faith with anyone else anymore.
This story reveal in how a guy who always known as a 'rotten apple in eye' try to rebuild his broken life again.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING, but the PLOT
Chapter 20: It’s not the end, but just begins
Have you ever thought that whatever decision you make or whatever choice you choose today will decide on what you’ll be one day?
Seriously, even though I realize it, I never think about it so deeply. Most of the choices that I made since I was small till this second are actually only based on either my current emotion or something that I believe won’t cause any trouble to others or my own self.
However,
Is emotion and logically thinking are the only way of deciding on your future, your own life or your relationship with someone that important for you in this world? Cause…sometimes, I wonder why there’s ‘a person’ in this world that gives a shorter time to think seriously about his or her significant life than the time that he or she spends to enjoy with their youth life which definitely will end one day. Well, it’s a common anyway, right? People usually afraid to sacrifice what they’ve now as an exchange with something that worthier for them to have one day.
Hard to understand?
Hehehe. Not only you, cause me also.
Recently, my mind packed with a lot of possibilities like; what will happen to ‘the me’ now IF Jun didn’t take a step back from me back then? What will happen to ‘the me’ today IF I choose to ignore Jun’s action before and just get along with
him like nothing happen?
And, what IF I didn’t help Aiba back then? What IF I’m not trying to commit suicide before? What IF Aiba never came to help me? What IF I never be honest to Aiba and Ohno about my feelings?
Since I was a kid, I never know what friendship is. I already forget what parents’ love is. And I keep receiving nothing but glare, judgemental looking or discrimination by people around me.
But the past will stay as a past. Whether you like it or otherwise, it can’t be changed anymore.
“Kazunari-CHAN~”
I rolled my body immediately to lie on my stomach on the rooftop.
“I told you NO CHAN.”
But Aiba just giggled.
Oh, yeah. How I wish I have a hair shaver right beside me now, so I’ll ‘help’ him to change into ‘Aiba the monk’!
“Ogura-sensei is looking for you. He thought you were skipping his class.”
“Eh?” I clumsily sat up. “But, didn’t the class monitor said before all the teachers have a meeting now?”
“But Sensei is really in the class now. So, hurry up!”
I got a huge surprise when Aiba suddenly grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the rooftop. Few times I almost lost my balance as I tried my best to follow his pace. SERIOUSLY, did he forget that he’s ex-school track athlete?!
Finally, I can see the class from our spot. But suddenly, Aiba pushed me to stand in front of the door first. As he holds my shoulders from behind, I looked at him with a frown.
“What-”
“It’s better if you go inside first.”
Hmm…
He’s right.
So, I immediately grabbed the door’s holder and slid it open.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!”
“Eh?”
Sounds of crackers and applauses stunned me on the spot. All my classmates now were standing around me with a huge smile on their faces.
W-What? E-Eh?
“Hurry up~ let’s blow out the candles and cut your cake!”
Aiba then pushed me to enter the class as my classmates already moved aside to give me a way. Meanwhile, I still couldn’t mutter any word or letter from my lips. As I already stood in front of a strawberry cream cake with ‘happy cool 17’ written on it, all of them applauses louder for me. Even the candles on the cake already lighten up and only waiting for me to blow them.
“Blow it out, blow it out.”
I heard Ohno whispered beside me. Awkwardly, I turned to him before finally moved my mouth closer to the cake. I can hear the whole class still clapping and cheering me up rhythmically; echoing loudly the class with their voices.
Then, I exhaled the air out from my mouth.
“YEAH! HAPPY COOL 17, KAZUNARI-KUN!!!”
I stunned as they gave me another huge applauses after it. Feel super embarrassed with their treatment, I just scratched my head with a force smile. Suddenly, Aiba dragged me from there to the already prepared chair at the center of the class with some of the male classmates lifted a table and the cake to beside me. I however just followed the flow as I still confused with what’s happening. It’s then when Nishikido suddenly came in with a group of classmates and stood in front me.
Awesome.
That’s the first thing that popped into my head when they started to sing me a song with Nishikido playing the guitar. One by one people inside here slowly followed them to sing it along and finally, ended with the whole class sang the chorus part except for me as I didn’t know the song so much.
I-I really hate to admit this but…I feel so touch and overwhelm by it. It’s just a year after I join them and they already make a grand celebration for me. Even dad and mom never does this for Jun and me before.
Slowly, I curved with a smile before followed the others to clap after they finished the song.
“Was it great?”
I nodded by Nishikido’s question. It somehow reminds me with the same question when he asked me to join their band year ago. Now however, I’m their former band mates. After the drugs incident, I decided to leave the band. Even though I’m not guilty, it will still give an effect to their band and perhaps will cause them for couldn’t make any performance if people find out that one of their guitarist has ‘something to do’ with drugs. But until now, I still practice with them sometimes. I even still play guitar and whenever I free, I’ll make a street performance in front of the pedestrians.
“So now, let’s cut the cake!”
And one of the girls beside gave me a cutter immediately. As I took it awkwardly, I turned to Aiba with a slight frown.
“Me…?”
“Of course! It’s your birthday after all!”
Slowly, I moved the cutter to the cake. Just when I almost touched it with the cutter tip, I turned to Aiba hesitantly. After he gave me another nod as a green light; I cut it very slowly while gritting hardly my teeth.
“Is this okay?”
I asked and gave the cutter back to the girl before.
“Yeay! Congratulations Kazunari-chan!!!” and again, he hugged me TIGHTLY for the…
I didn’t know how many times already.
“Aiba…I said NO CHAN and you’re killing me!”
“And I said I’m happy and congratulations Kazunari!”
Geez.
“Let's taste your cake first.”
“Yeah. But the cream is too much. Who choose this one?”
Aiba and Ohno hands up immediately.
“You guys are the closest people to Kazunari-kun and still didn’t know him well?”
“Hey! There’s no limit to get know better about your best friend, you know!”
“Such a lame excuse.”
The whole class burst out with a laugh. I meanwhile just smiled with my eyes still stared at them.
I wonder what about Jun’s celebration today.
The cake then was properly cut by my girl classmate before she passed me a plate of it while smiling.
“Umaii na~”
We just laughed when Ohno hungrily pouted.
As I dug and shoved the cake into my mouth, the whole class looked at me wonderingly; perhaps feel curious with the taste of the cake. And that’s when I realized that Aiba was swallowing hardly in front as I took another bite of the slice.
“…You want some, Aiba?”
He just bit his lower lip. The other guys immediately teased him while nudging his arm that finally forced him to nod at me.
Oh yeah.
Payback time.
Immediately, I got up, walked and hardly ‘slap’ Aiba’s face with the creamy plate. Just when I took my hand away, the class fell into a very deep silent for a while.
Err…
Was I doing it too much?
All of sudden, Aiba also curves with an evil smirk before swiftly made his way to the cake. I was accidentally seen that he’s grabbing for a small slice of cake on the table, so when he turned his body to face me and threw his cake, I move my head to aside immediately.
And…the ‘innocent’ person behind me got the straight hit.
“Ups…Sorry Ai-chan.”
Aiba’s face became totally white pale when the cream already stuck on the most facial lover’s face in my class. As Ai-chan licked the cream on the edge of her lips, she suddenly ran toward Aiba and picked for another slice beside him. However, just when the creamy cake almost touched Aiba’s face, Aiba suddenly dodged that made it got to another person’s face behind.
“HOW COULD YOU?!!!”
And the class suddenly turned to noisy and panic when you can see cream and cake were flying everywhere and anywhere. There’re some girls and guys who tried their best to avoid from the cream by left the class or hid under the table or teacher’s desk, but it then just led into a huge success. Well, after they’d been found out, they’re forcefully being dragged out and got harsher ‘punished’ from others.
I smiled widely.
What a nice memory before I graduate from this school next year. It’s really great if I have this kind of experience earlier as I think I still hasn’t spent my time much enough with them. But …IF I’ve through this earlier, I don’t think I’ll treasure this memory much than I am now too right?
“HEY!!! ARE YOU GUYS 71 YEARS OLD ALREADY?!!” Ogura-sensei’s face suddenly came up as the door harshly had been slid open.
“HUH?”
All of us frowned.
71 years old?
“Ah, I want to say 7 years old actually.” Sensei said that made us giggle immediately.
“Anyway, WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING NOW?!”
I startled by the shout; along with my other classmates. All of us just looked at our feet; not dare to return Sensei’s glare at all.
“Ohno-kun! Stop eating!”
“Um?”
Ohno looked up immediately with his mouth still munching the cake in his mouth. His hand was already holding the empty cake plate with his face plastered with cream here and there.
“U-i- w-id-you-h-ay-ho-m-ht-eing-h-en-h-ei?”
“Fine, fine. Just eat as much as you want.”
All of us burst with laugh immediately. Ohno meanwhile just stared at me confusedly; pleaded me to give him an answer. I however just shook my head with a smile.
“Actually, I want to see Kazunari-kun.”
Confusedly, I blinked my eyes. When Sensei had approached me close enough, he swung his arm immediately to my shoulder.
“Your family made a phone call before.”
~*~*~*~
Finally, I stood like a statue in front of the ward’s door. Just when I almost reached out for the doorknob, I startled on the spot.
Oh, sh*t.
I’m such a dumb*ss.
It’s actually no point for me to come to this hospital actually. After all, mom and dad mustn’t want to see my face anymore.
“Kazu?”
I jerked up by the voice and saw Jun was standing behind me with a medium-sized bag in his embrace.
“B-Bye.”
And I turned to the elevator’s way immediately.
“Wait!”
I stopped. Then, I heard sounds of Jun’s footsteps were approaching me from behind.
“Come on. We need to greet our new family member right?”
However, I didn’t answer him.
Of course I really want to...but…
“Let’s go inside? I haven’t seen her too. Dad called me before and asked me to bring some of mom’s clothes from home.”
That’s when I finally realized Jun was also still wearing his school’s uniform. He must be hurriedly ran back to home from his school back then.
“I-I can’t.”
“I understand.”
And he patted my shoulder.
“But, our little sister deserves to see your face, doesn’t she?”
I heavily sighed.
“I’ll come in with you. At least, just greet her and mom. Mom just fought between her life and death before.”
For a few minutes, we just stood in front there till I finally nodded in defeat by Jun continuously persuades. At the school before, Ogura-sensei told me that someone just made a phone call for me and said that my mom just gave a birth of a baby girl at the hospital. Fortunately, Ogura-sensei already informed about my family’s situation, so he promised that he won’t say anything about it or my whole classmates must be keep saying ‘congratulations’ or ‘be a good brother’ to me back then. It was like I didn’t appreciate if they wish me to, but…my family’s condition made me feel really hard to face it.
“Here we come.” Jun said it cheerfully beside as we enter the ward.
I noticed that mom and dad’s face slightly changed as Jun closed the door behind. I meanwhile immediately brought my face down; tried to avoid from exchange gaze with them.
Suddenly, dad sighed.
“That’s great both of you finally here. Come closer and greet your little sis.”
I looked up immediately.
Was it meant…dad was the one who called school before?
“C-Can I lift her, mom?”
Jun asked as he moved from my side. I saw he smiled happily when mom gave him a nod. Then, as slowly and carefully as he can, he touched the newborn sis and carried her in his arms. After that, Jun immediately moved closer to me; gave me a chance for a better view on our sis.
Wow.
She’s still red.
“You can touch her, Kazu.”
Mom said between her giggle; probably noticed that I looked a bit clumsy.
...Well, of course. I never have any experience with baby after all.
While swallowing hardly, I used my index finger to touch her soft cheek. I however immediately pulled away as I saw her moved a bit before continue to snore calmly in Jun’s hold.
“So small…”
“And cute, right?”
I looked up at Jun and saw he was smiling happily beside me. After returning his grin, I tried to have another touch on our little sis. So, as slow and silent as I can, I poked my finger on her tiny right hand.
But, I widened my eyes when she suddenly gripped on my finger.
“She likes you too, Kazu.”
I smiled by Jun’s small whisper. Only God knows how happy I am right now.
“Hi, little sis. This is Jun ni-chan. Let’s get along, kay?”
Then, Jun looked at me with a smile.
Err…
“Uh…”
Okay.
Relax, Kazunari. Take a deep breath.
Whew…
“H-Hello. This is Kazu ni-chan. Glad to meet you, little sis.”
And I felt the tiny sis gripped on my finger tighter than before.
“Honey, wasn’t it means all of them will celebrate their birthday on a same day?”
“Ah, that’s right.”
“This is cool. Seems, the three of us are twins.”
I heard mom, dad and Jun giggled together.
“Right, Kazu?”
But, I just bit my lower lip.
“Kazu?”
Slowly, my tears streamed down on my cheeks. As I curved with another smile, I moved another hand to her face.
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“Congratulations for both these new big brothers!”
Sho cheerfully said while clapping his hands, followed by Aiba and Ohno. Both I and Jun just bumped into them when we
came out from the hospital building before.
“Is she cute?”
“Of course she is.”
“Anyway, where are we heading to?”
“To celebrate you guys birthday~”
“Eh?”
The two of us turned to the three guys in disbelieve.
“Sushi?”
“Oi. Do you think we’re producing money machine?”
I just smiled when they started to burst with laugh. As I followed their pace from behind, I saw a guy who looked like a thug was walking on the alley behind us not afar. Hardly, I just bit my lower lip as I noticed that whenever a group of girls or guys seen him, they will definitely moved aside or made a disgusted face on him.
All of a sudden, I saw a group of school’s uniform wearers ‘accidently’ bumped into him.
“Ah, Sorry~”
They said before laugh amusingly and took their leave. The guy before however didn’t say anything but whined painfully on the ground.
Slowly, I stepped toward him.
“Don’t show your weakness in front of them.”
“Eh?”
Without answering his questioning stare, I just grabbed his arm and pulled him to get back on his feet.
“No matter what they have done to you, don’t fight back or show whether you’re hurt or not.”
He still looked at me with a frown. I however just slightly smile before patted his shoulder and walked to already waiting Jun, Aiba, Ohno and Sho in front.
“Kazu?”
“What did you said to him?”
I just returned their questioning gaze with a chuckle before turned back to the front.
“What did you tell him?”
“Nothing.”
And I laughed when the four of them started to beg me for answer them. However, I managed to ignore it with a sarcastic smile.
Everyone has their own different experiences of life. Anyone might face the same situation like me when he or she is still small, teenagers, growing up or now.
But, that’s what making us different.
The more hardships we face, the more sacrifice we do and the more patience we become, it’ll train us to be stronger and stronger. Till one day, when we finally able to smile from the bottom our heart as long as we don’t give up…
Right?
“Kazunari-chan~ tell me, tell me.”
“No chan!”
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