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Firstly, I'm sorry cause this is not a fanfic post. Some readers were wondering when I'm going to update/post my fic and I'm really sorry for need to make you wait longer. For me, it's better to not write anything yet rather than letting you to read a mess up fic. Plot with quality is the best one after all right? :)
By the way, I was really surprised to receive your birthday wishes! I haven't opened my LJ account for quite a while due to lack of time, so I never expect to see that much. Again, Thank You REALLY much for taking your time to send me that message. I really appreciate it. It makes me extremely happy. Please accept my deep, deep, deep appreciation for you m(_ _)m
To make up for it, I decide to share with you what just happened so far to me at my current practical training place. For you who still don't know yet, I'm doing my practical at a small tourism agency and I still have 2 more months to go. The training is quite harsh for us (me and other interns) and even the staff there because one of the bosses who is also our supervisor is quite SADISTIC if I may say. He likes to fool around and talks about NC-ish thing (yeah, seriously), but when it's time to be serious, be prepared. Now I really, really understand what he meant by 'only the strong ones will stay till the end there' when we just starting our training. That place seriously train you to be mentally strong. Swearing, cursing, warning and anything beyond your imagination you will see ALL there. Besides, tourism is a field that might require you to work 7 days/week sometimes. Of course as a intern we're not 'that' tied with that rule, but since I'm avoiding from staying at home too much I prefer to come to work more.
There's a bad thing that just happened lately. On my birthday last weekend, I actually went to the office to help the sales or office matter as usual. Since the other interns have something else to do, I was the only intern at that moment. A chaos happened when a couple who bought one of our tours (the salesperson at that time was another intern and me) suddenly called our office, madly saying that they hasn't be picked up yet and our service is crap. I was really worried at that time cause I really thought that's a part of my fault. Yet, after investigating it, the office find out that the tourists actually made that 'trouble' on purpose because they wanted their money back, probably because they find out there's other tourism agency who provided a same tour in much cheaper price (it's cheaper because the location is just 2 hours to the tour place while our office is 7-8 hours to there. And we also provided MUCH better accommodation based on previous tourists' experience). The tourists also put the blame on that intern and me, saying that this 'trouble' happen because we are interns. In fact, they're the one who went to different waiting place although we already explained to them where to wait so many times. Annoying, isn't it? And our big boss told us that they're going to come to the office again tomorrow for refund. Thankfully, the entire office is on our side.They said there's no need to be afraid because this kind of situation actually happens quite a lot in tourism field. That's why my supervisor said that in their company they will never practice 'Customer always right' policy. People who try to take advantage of other people is everywhere. If it's our fault then we will will try to fix it, but if it's not, then even the big boss won't have any problem to take that matter into court if it's needed.
And yeah, this whole mess up thing happen on my birthday =_= That's why I honestly never celebrate my birthday after I was around 13 years old. A trouble like this usually will happen on my birthday. I went to office to avoid from something bad happen at my house, yet it 'follows' to the workplace (though, at some point I found it's funny too XDDD).
That's the bad thing. What's good (and unbelievable for me until now) is that agency wants me to become their Japanese translator whenever tourists from Japan came and went to tour. If there's Japanese tourist comes to ask for tour, the staffs also will immediately send them to me to sell the tour packages. Of course my Japanese is bad, but they always say that this is the best time for me to polish my skill. If there's anything happen I always can ask for them help. Up till now I already joined 3 tours and the last one was two days ago.
The first one for me didn't go really well. I was quite nervous and the tourist was a lone middle-age man who can speak English quite good. I understand what he's talking about most of the time, but I couldn't 'dig out' those Nihongo words that I knew from my brain!!! DX Besides, he seemed don't like to talk. I have to started the conversation during our journey in the vehicle almost all the time because he is really quiet. After quite a long talk, I finally find out that actually his wife just passed away 5 years ago. And based on his story I think that's the reason why he always go to other country during summer holiday by himself. Another thing that I can't forget during the tour was the Hong Kong couple who sat just in front us were so lovey-dovey and smooching almost ALONG the way. At first I think they're sweet, but after a while... =_= I still feel bad that the Japanese man have to see it (although he also always look outside the window most of the time).
The second group was University students(1 girl and 2 boys). At first, I couldn't join their conversation so much since they always talk among themselves although they didn't mind me to join in as well. Only when I told them that I almost reach my 20 (yeah, I'm officially 20 now), we somehow suddenly could go along cause they're actually around the same age with me! The two of the three were quite interested with the nature outside the vehicle window and keep saying 'Sugoii' or 'Kireii'. One of them even keep on saying 'Kuuki wa oishii' and the other three of us will burst with laugh. During our journey to the tour location, I mostly explain what we have seen outside, about Malaysia and sometimes we make comparison about our countries or just talking nonsense. The real hectic was when we began our river cruise tour (it's a tour to see monkeys and fireflies that require us to do river cruise once we arrive at the tour location after 2 hours and half driving). The three of them were not so good with English, so every time the real Guide of the tour finished talking, I have to translate to them immediately. And since in that trip the tourist were only them and a family from China, the Guide has to talk in Mandarin with the Chinese family which I can't understand at all. So I have no choice but to tell the students whatever I knew around there to entertain them. I think my head almost exploded when we went back from the cruise due to over-working @_@
But I'm glad they really enjoy it. On our way back, the three of them keep on talking and fooling around for some time before the lady took a nap (the other two guys really like to tease her. Yet, unexpectedly for them, I'm really good on returning their remark and the lady said that today they won't be able to bully her because she has a strong 'ally' with her XD). Somehow they even got a new nickname from me like the girl was 'Mama' because she was the one who took a really good care of them and the other one who was supposed to be called as Ame Otoko(raining man) changed to Kuuki Otoko(yeah, the same guy who keep mentioning Oishii above. I guess I was influenced by Aiba's giving-nickname-habit XDDDD) At last in the car only the Kuuki Otoko still stay up, so the two of us shared our interest with each other for the entire way back to their hotel(somehow our topics were also included Arashi and AKB48 since he's a big fan of Ooshima Yuko). Yet, what made me surprise the most was Mama and the other one who we called as Oto-san(given by Kuuki Otoko) actually take Malay Language lesson while the Kuuki Otoko taking Indonesia Language lesson at their University in Japan! They were wondering how I can speak quite well with them while they hardly can make a sentence even with intensive classes(just if they knew how 'suffering' I was to quickly 'translate' what they're saying and what the Guide was saying along the tour...well, the appreciation must go to our wonderful subbing community/subbers too for providing us with subbed Arashi videos. I studied a lot from watching their work ^^). They said they're going to do their best with theirs study too once they went back to Japan.
The third clients I served was a family of four (parents and two cute little sons). In my opinion the father's English is quite good, but he has a difficult time to arrange his sentence (just like me). They're really nice people! Even though the parents had been married for about 10 years, they still talk politely to each other and even the way of they talk always sound gentle for me. The family loves nature and animals, so they're really excited when doing the river cruise (they also bought monkeys & fireflies tour). Since they didn't bring camera with them, my supervisor (he joined the tour as a driver XDDD) told me to offer myself to take photos for them. In the vehicle we mostly talk about Japan and Malaysia. Then somehow the topic went to the drama I have watched so far since I told them one of the way I learn Japanese is from dramas. The drama I mentioned first was Shinigami-kun. But since they looked confused, I said that I also have watched Kaibutsu-kun and finally they went "aaaah~". There's a short moment among them though when the parents tried to remember the lead actor's name. But I pretended to ignore it and just smiling to myself (of course we know who Kaibutsu-kun is right? XDDD).
Unfortunately, to tell the truth, my family is now opposing what I'm doing. Actually, they didn't like the fact that I don't have days off cause for them it looks like the agency is forcing me to come to work everyday and join the tour. My father already told me that he wants to see the boss to talk to him why they're forcing interns like us to work that hard already. He only made me disappoint me though. What makes me sad the most were when they said that interns should just relax and not doing much because it's our 'job' as intern. No need to learn so many things. Even when I started to learn Japanese by by myself when I was 13 they actually laughed at me. They never think I can go far with it. My brother even said it's just a wasting of time although they still drive me to my Japanese class (I didn't follow the class for long unfortunately). I think I already reached my limit after what they said, so when I told my bosses (including my supervisor of course) that my father might suddenly want to see them anytime, my tears just flow down. I really thought them and the staffs are going to laugh at me, but instead they told me to let it out. My supervisor also said that he knew this is going to happen sooner or later because he also took 10 years to make his mother finally accept what he is doing. Tourism field will always stay one of the hardest job to do. Nobody will understand how people like us work unless they have done it or have family member who works in tourism. They said to just tell my father to see them anytime cause they'll know how to explain it to him for my behalf.
Now somehow I think they already realized that my problem is my family. Lately, they pay extra care about that topic with me. Previously they sometimes feel weird why I don't have problem with the working hours (I have to come to office at 9 am and if there's fireflies tour on the same day, I'll come home around 10 pm. And the next day I'll have to come to office as usual) and always want to join the tour if there's Japanese tourists even without a week off though I'm only an intern. But after that incident they support me more. The bosses always say to just ignore my family's thought because they already recognized my Japanese. And they really respect me for my hard efforts. There's even one time I wanted to treat the staff because I got tips from the 'nice family', but they all refused and told me to show it to my brother and said this I've got from the tour yesterday to him XD That's my effort and they wanted me to keep it to myself. For the first time ever together with this LJ page, I found a place that really appreciate me the way I am and I don't have to 'fake' my personality like I have to at school and house just to satisfy other people's expectation. Even in that office there's no one I can categorize as hypocrite. The bosses really know how to choose their staff. But like I said above, that place is really 'harsh'. You must know when to play around and when to work. The stress can't be explained in words.
I still have a long way to go. And I'm not dare enough to say that I will stay until the end there, but what I know I'll make sure to use this only opportunity to improve myself. Even my relationship with my father now is quite 'cold' after I make it clear with him that no matter how stressful my training will be, I'm going to continue doing it. Now though, even though I want to continue improving my broken Japanese(hahaha), I don't do that to prove it to my family. I just want to prove to myself that I'm worthy enough to be alive after everything my family have done to me. My family ruined my past bad enough and I won't let them to destroy my future as well. I'm quite a bad child now for not listening to them like I used to be before, but this is the only way I know to save my life. The long-term depression is killing me. I have to find for other way to save my self-confidence back before it's too late. Some of you kindly offer yourself to listen to me if I need someone and I really appreciate it, a lot. But I have a problem to express my feelings, so even if I'm feeling really down I don't know how to share it. Before I know I already broke down. I don't know when to stop pushing myself.
I'll keep on doing my best! For now what I'm doing just keep on 'walking on the path' that I choose. I might success and might be not, but I know I won't regret it. Just do what you believe you won't ever regret it. This is your life, there's nothing wrong to fight for it :) Like Arashi's GUTS! song said "Having a dream is not an easy thing." But Arashi also doesn't take shortcut to be on where they're shining now right? ;) So let's just keep on doing what we believe in.
This is a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally long post, ne? Sorry, sorry m(_ _")m I'll quit now. Anyway, again, I apologize cause there'll be no new fic update until I finish my practical training. But maybe if you have any suggestion about what kind of stories that I should write next, you can tell me (I won't promise I'll work on it though XD). But it'll be nice to have others' idea too since I also still in my writer's block mode!!!
I'm sorry for not commenting on your post btw! Till the next time! Again, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES!!! Hope you guys have a great day and time! Please take care of yourself and all the best in everything you do! Let's pray that we will have enough money to buy Arashi Hawaii's DVD once it comes out later, kay?! XD
*hug you in white cat costume*
Firstly, I'm sorry cause this is not a fanfic post. Some readers were wondering when I'm going to update/post my fic and I'm really sorry for need to make you wait longer. For me, it's better to not write anything yet rather than letting you to read a mess up fic. Plot with quality is the best one after all right? :)
By the way, I was really surprised to receive your birthday wishes! I haven't opened my LJ account for quite a while due to lack of time, so I never expect to see that much. Again, Thank You REALLY much for taking your time to send me that message. I really appreciate it. It makes me extremely happy. Please accept my deep, deep, deep appreciation for you m(_ _)m
To make up for it, I decide to share with you what just happened so far to me at my current practical training place. For you who still don't know yet, I'm doing my practical at a small tourism agency and I still have 2 more months to go. The training is quite harsh for us (me and other interns) and even the staff there because one of the bosses who is also our supervisor is quite SADISTIC if I may say. He likes to fool around and talks about NC-ish thing (yeah, seriously), but when it's time to be serious, be prepared. Now I really, really understand what he meant by 'only the strong ones will stay till the end there' when we just starting our training. That place seriously train you to be mentally strong. Swearing, cursing, warning and anything beyond your imagination you will see ALL there. Besides, tourism is a field that might require you to work 7 days/week sometimes. Of course as a intern we're not 'that' tied with that rule, but since I'm avoiding from staying at home too much I prefer to come to work more.
There's a bad thing that just happened lately. On my birthday last weekend, I actually went to the office to help the sales or office matter as usual. Since the other interns have something else to do, I was the only intern at that moment. A chaos happened when a couple who bought one of our tours (the salesperson at that time was another intern and me) suddenly called our office, madly saying that they hasn't be picked up yet and our service is crap. I was really worried at that time cause I really thought that's a part of my fault. Yet, after investigating it, the office find out that the tourists actually made that 'trouble' on purpose because they wanted their money back, probably because they find out there's other tourism agency who provided a same tour in much cheaper price (it's cheaper because the location is just 2 hours to the tour place while our office is 7-8 hours to there. And we also provided MUCH better accommodation based on previous tourists' experience). The tourists also put the blame on that intern and me, saying that this 'trouble' happen because we are interns. In fact, they're the one who went to different waiting place although we already explained to them where to wait so many times. Annoying, isn't it? And our big boss told us that they're going to come to the office again tomorrow for refund. Thankfully, the entire office is on our side.They said there's no need to be afraid because this kind of situation actually happens quite a lot in tourism field. That's why my supervisor said that in their company they will never practice 'Customer always right' policy. People who try to take advantage of other people is everywhere. If it's our fault then we will will try to fix it, but if it's not, then even the big boss won't have any problem to take that matter into court if it's needed.
And yeah, this whole mess up thing happen on my birthday =_= That's why I honestly never celebrate my birthday after I was around 13 years old. A trouble like this usually will happen on my birthday. I went to office to avoid from something bad happen at my house, yet it 'follows' to the workplace (though, at some point I found it's funny too XDDD).
That's the bad thing. What's good (and unbelievable for me until now) is that agency wants me to become their Japanese translator whenever tourists from Japan came and went to tour. If there's Japanese tourist comes to ask for tour, the staffs also will immediately send them to me to sell the tour packages. Of course my Japanese is bad, but they always say that this is the best time for me to polish my skill. If there's anything happen I always can ask for them help. Up till now I already joined 3 tours and the last one was two days ago.
The first one for me didn't go really well. I was quite nervous and the tourist was a lone middle-age man who can speak English quite good. I understand what he's talking about most of the time, but I couldn't 'dig out' those Nihongo words that I knew from my brain!!! DX Besides, he seemed don't like to talk. I have to started the conversation during our journey in the vehicle almost all the time because he is really quiet. After quite a long talk, I finally find out that actually his wife just passed away 5 years ago. And based on his story I think that's the reason why he always go to other country during summer holiday by himself. Another thing that I can't forget during the tour was the Hong Kong couple who sat just in front us were so lovey-dovey and smooching almost ALONG the way. At first I think they're sweet, but after a while... =_= I still feel bad that the Japanese man have to see it (although he also always look outside the window most of the time).
The second group was University students(1 girl and 2 boys). At first, I couldn't join their conversation so much since they always talk among themselves although they didn't mind me to join in as well. Only when I told them that I almost reach my 20 (yeah, I'm officially 20 now), we somehow suddenly could go along cause they're actually around the same age with me! The two of the three were quite interested with the nature outside the vehicle window and keep saying 'Sugoii' or 'Kireii'. One of them even keep on saying 'Kuuki wa oishii' and the other three of us will burst with laugh. During our journey to the tour location, I mostly explain what we have seen outside, about Malaysia and sometimes we make comparison about our countries or just talking nonsense. The real hectic was when we began our river cruise tour (it's a tour to see monkeys and fireflies that require us to do river cruise once we arrive at the tour location after 2 hours and half driving). The three of them were not so good with English, so every time the real Guide of the tour finished talking, I have to translate to them immediately. And since in that trip the tourist were only them and a family from China, the Guide has to talk in Mandarin with the Chinese family which I can't understand at all. So I have no choice but to tell the students whatever I knew around there to entertain them. I think my head almost exploded when we went back from the cruise due to over-working @_@
But I'm glad they really enjoy it. On our way back, the three of them keep on talking and fooling around for some time before the lady took a nap (the other two guys really like to tease her. Yet, unexpectedly for them, I'm really good on returning their remark and the lady said that today they won't be able to bully her because she has a strong 'ally' with her XD). Somehow they even got a new nickname from me like the girl was 'Mama' because she was the one who took a really good care of them and the other one who was supposed to be called as Ame Otoko(raining man) changed to Kuuki Otoko(yeah, the same guy who keep mentioning Oishii above. I guess I was influenced by Aiba's giving-nickname-habit XDDDD) At last in the car only the Kuuki Otoko still stay up, so the two of us shared our interest with each other for the entire way back to their hotel(somehow our topics were also included Arashi and AKB48 since he's a big fan of Ooshima Yuko). Yet, what made me surprise the most was Mama and the other one who we called as Oto-san(given by Kuuki Otoko) actually take Malay Language lesson while the Kuuki Otoko taking Indonesia Language lesson at their University in Japan! They were wondering how I can speak quite well with them while they hardly can make a sentence even with intensive classes(just if they knew how 'suffering' I was to quickly 'translate' what they're saying and what the Guide was saying along the tour...well, the appreciation must go to our wonderful subbing community/subbers too for providing us with subbed Arashi videos. I studied a lot from watching their work ^^). They said they're going to do their best with theirs study too once they went back to Japan.
The third clients I served was a family of four (parents and two cute little sons). In my opinion the father's English is quite good, but he has a difficult time to arrange his sentence (just like me). They're really nice people! Even though the parents had been married for about 10 years, they still talk politely to each other and even the way of they talk always sound gentle for me. The family loves nature and animals, so they're really excited when doing the river cruise (they also bought monkeys & fireflies tour). Since they didn't bring camera with them, my supervisor (he joined the tour as a driver XDDD) told me to offer myself to take photos for them. In the vehicle we mostly talk about Japan and Malaysia. Then somehow the topic went to the drama I have watched so far since I told them one of the way I learn Japanese is from dramas. The drama I mentioned first was Shinigami-kun. But since they looked confused, I said that I also have watched Kaibutsu-kun and finally they went "aaaah~". There's a short moment among them though when the parents tried to remember the lead actor's name. But I pretended to ignore it and just smiling to myself (of course we know who Kaibutsu-kun is right? XDDD).
Unfortunately, to tell the truth, my family is now opposing what I'm doing. Actually, they didn't like the fact that I don't have days off cause for them it looks like the agency is forcing me to come to work everyday and join the tour. My father already told me that he wants to see the boss to talk to him why they're forcing interns like us to work that hard already. He only made me disappoint me though. What makes me sad the most were when they said that interns should just relax and not doing much because it's our 'job' as intern. No need to learn so many things. Even when I started to learn Japanese by by myself when I was 13 they actually laughed at me. They never think I can go far with it. My brother even said it's just a wasting of time although they still drive me to my Japanese class (I didn't follow the class for long unfortunately). I think I already reached my limit after what they said, so when I told my bosses (including my supervisor of course) that my father might suddenly want to see them anytime, my tears just flow down. I really thought them and the staffs are going to laugh at me, but instead they told me to let it out. My supervisor also said that he knew this is going to happen sooner or later because he also took 10 years to make his mother finally accept what he is doing. Tourism field will always stay one of the hardest job to do. Nobody will understand how people like us work unless they have done it or have family member who works in tourism. They said to just tell my father to see them anytime cause they'll know how to explain it to him for my behalf.
Now somehow I think they already realized that my problem is my family. Lately, they pay extra care about that topic with me. Previously they sometimes feel weird why I don't have problem with the working hours (I have to come to office at 9 am and if there's fireflies tour on the same day, I'll come home around 10 pm. And the next day I'll have to come to office as usual) and always want to join the tour if there's Japanese tourists even without a week off though I'm only an intern. But after that incident they support me more. The bosses always say to just ignore my family's thought because they already recognized my Japanese. And they really respect me for my hard efforts. There's even one time I wanted to treat the staff because I got tips from the 'nice family', but they all refused and told me to show it to my brother and said this I've got from the tour yesterday to him XD That's my effort and they wanted me to keep it to myself. For the first time ever together with this LJ page, I found a place that really appreciate me the way I am and I don't have to 'fake' my personality like I have to at school and house just to satisfy other people's expectation. Even in that office there's no one I can categorize as hypocrite. The bosses really know how to choose their staff. But like I said above, that place is really 'harsh'. You must know when to play around and when to work. The stress can't be explained in words.
I still have a long way to go. And I'm not dare enough to say that I will stay until the end there, but what I know I'll make sure to use this only opportunity to improve myself. Even my relationship with my father now is quite 'cold' after I make it clear with him that no matter how stressful my training will be, I'm going to continue doing it. Now though, even though I want to continue improving my broken Japanese(hahaha), I don't do that to prove it to my family. I just want to prove to myself that I'm worthy enough to be alive after everything my family have done to me. My family ruined my past bad enough and I won't let them to destroy my future as well. I'm quite a bad child now for not listening to them like I used to be before, but this is the only way I know to save my life. The long-term depression is killing me. I have to find for other way to save my self-confidence back before it's too late. Some of you kindly offer yourself to listen to me if I need someone and I really appreciate it, a lot. But I have a problem to express my feelings, so even if I'm feeling really down I don't know how to share it. Before I know I already broke down. I don't know when to stop pushing myself.
I'll keep on doing my best! For now what I'm doing just keep on 'walking on the path' that I choose. I might success and might be not, but I know I won't regret it. Just do what you believe you won't ever regret it. This is your life, there's nothing wrong to fight for it :) Like Arashi's GUTS! song said "Having a dream is not an easy thing." But Arashi also doesn't take shortcut to be on where they're shining now right? ;) So let's just keep on doing what we believe in.
This is a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally long post, ne? Sorry, sorry m(_ _")m I'll quit now. Anyway, again, I apologize cause there'll be no new fic update until I finish my practical training. But maybe if you have any suggestion about what kind of stories that I should write next, you can tell me (I won't promise I'll work on it though XD). But it'll be nice to have others' idea too since I also still in my writer's block mode!!!
I'm sorry for not commenting on your post btw! Till the next time! Again, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES!!! Hope you guys have a great day and time! Please take care of yourself and all the best in everything you do! Let's pray that we will have enough money to buy Arashi Hawaii's DVD once it comes out later, kay?! XD
*hug you in white cat costume*