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12/5/15 00:01どうも~
I was torn at first if I should post this or not just in case there's someone who is wondering or worried with my sudden disappearance (if there really is though XDDD). So here I am, to tell all my LJ friends that I'm still around :) Though if anyone notice it, I do appear in comment section sometimes, but I didn't update anything on my own journal. Well, the main reason for this is because my laptop charger broke down since around months ago. And since I don't have much time and money due to...well, assignments, I also don't have opportunity to buy a new one.
I bet those who have read my personal journal might notice that my laptop broke down quite a lot now XD But this time I didn't find it as 'suffering' as the previous ones since I still have time to move any important and needed videos, songs, and files before the laptop battery running out of battery. And since it's nearing exam period, I also don't bother so much to use laptop at that time.
Another things that I found even funnier (and maybe unfortunate too) is 3 days before the first exam paper, my phone (and my only connection source with internet) broke down. That explains why I didn't reply some of your messages especially since I don't like replying LJ's message using phone because I tend to misspell words. And this applies for those who I didn't manage to wish Happy Birthday too (_ _")
So let's make the things I've mentioned above short - modern gadget hates me.
I have question to ask here though. I was thinking if I should continue writing fanfic. Somehow when I notice that there's a lot of new good writers appear and there's a lot of the also good 'seniors' disappeared from the fic world, it makes me waver if I should proceed with it or not. Of course I still enjoy writing it as before, but after finishing 'Project Eternity' I suddenly feel like there's something wrong with the plot that I come up with until now. I just can't reach a certain level of 'accomplishment' when I wrote it like before. To be honest there is a lot of fics in my laptop that I didn't post it here because of this reason. I tried to overcome it by posting 'Dead Run' since it's less riskier as I already have the plot in my mind but then I got something that probably one of the fanfic writer's afraid with - writer's block. That's why the series suddenly stops there. I hope I can continue the series one day, but maybe not for now.
However, during my laptop-charger-broke down 'era' I decided to rewatch Fatal Frame, and suddenly, get a new fic idea! It just a short series one and consists of 4 chapters. I'm almost finish with chapter 3 now but...I was considering if I should post it or not. Well, firstly because I was thinking if it was good enough for you girls/guys(if there's guy around) to read especially for those who follow or at least have read those fic I've wrote before. The second reason is because instead of consisting 5 members like my usual fic, it only has 2 Arashi members as the main characters which is Sho and Aiba (a friendship one, of course. And also a horror plot too, of course). I have to short it down to 2 members only so I can make the story shorter before I will lose my will to complete the fic again like what happens to most of the fics in my laptop. If I include all of them, the story will defintely get longer since I want to make sure their personality will 'balance' the plot. The last reason is because...let's be honest. I lose my confident in writing again *bitter laugh and clap to myself* (the last time I experienced this probably when I posted Meteor Bond).
But don't take me wrong. I don't feel posting it is like forcing myself since it's actually something that I really want to do for those who have waited for my new fics for all this time (again, if there's any).
In short (again) - do you want me to keep on writing fanfic or not?
See you around later! :D
P.S I miss writing a comedy fic again.
I was torn at first if I should post this or not just in case there's someone who is wondering or worried with my sudden disappearance (if there really is though XDDD). So here I am, to tell all my LJ friends that I'm still around :) Though if anyone notice it, I do appear in comment section sometimes, but I didn't update anything on my own journal. Well, the main reason for this is because my laptop charger broke down since around months ago. And since I don't have much time and money due to...well, assignments, I also don't have opportunity to buy a new one.
I bet those who have read my personal journal might notice that my laptop broke down quite a lot now XD But this time I didn't find it as 'suffering' as the previous ones since I still have time to move any important and needed videos, songs, and files before the laptop battery running out of battery. And since it's nearing exam period, I also don't bother so much to use laptop at that time.
Another things that I found even funnier (and maybe unfortunate too) is 3 days before the first exam paper, my phone (and my only connection source with internet) broke down. That explains why I didn't reply some of your messages especially since I don't like replying LJ's message using phone because I tend to misspell words. And this applies for those who I didn't manage to wish Happy Birthday too (_ _")
So let's make the things I've mentioned above short - modern gadget hates me.
I have question to ask here though. I was thinking if I should continue writing fanfic. Somehow when I notice that there's a lot of new good writers appear and there's a lot of the also good 'seniors' disappeared from the fic world, it makes me waver if I should proceed with it or not. Of course I still enjoy writing it as before, but after finishing 'Project Eternity' I suddenly feel like there's something wrong with the plot that I come up with until now. I just can't reach a certain level of 'accomplishment' when I wrote it like before. To be honest there is a lot of fics in my laptop that I didn't post it here because of this reason. I tried to overcome it by posting 'Dead Run' since it's less riskier as I already have the plot in my mind but then I got something that probably one of the fanfic writer's afraid with - writer's block. That's why the series suddenly stops there. I hope I can continue the series one day, but maybe not for now.
However, during my laptop-charger-broke down 'era' I decided to rewatch Fatal Frame, and suddenly, get a new fic idea! It just a short series one and consists of 4 chapters. I'm almost finish with chapter 3 now but...I was considering if I should post it or not. Well, firstly because I was thinking if it was good enough for you girls/guys(if there's guy around) to read especially for those who follow or at least have read those fic I've wrote before. The second reason is because instead of consisting 5 members like my usual fic, it only has 2 Arashi members as the main characters which is Sho and Aiba (a friendship one, of course. And also a horror plot too, of course). I have to short it down to 2 members only so I can make the story shorter before I will lose my will to complete the fic again like what happens to most of the fics in my laptop. If I include all of them, the story will defintely get longer since I want to make sure their personality will 'balance' the plot. The last reason is because...let's be honest. I lose my confident in writing again *bitter laugh and clap to myself* (the last time I experienced this probably when I posted Meteor Bond).
But don't take me wrong. I don't feel posting it is like forcing myself since it's actually something that I really want to do for those who have waited for my new fics for all this time (again, if there's any).
In short (again) - do you want me to keep on writing fanfic or not?
See you around later! :D
P.S I miss writing a comedy fic again.
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