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24iza_runTitle: Fixing My Future with the Broken Pieces of My Past
Genre: Brotherhood, friendship, angst
Rating: G(Include curses and harsh words)
Summary: Having a brilliant and perfect fraternal twins who is 180 degrees different from him forced the 16 years old Miyamoto Kazunari to grow up with a harsh and cold treatment by people around. At first, he had Jun who's the only person that close to him despite of their uncommonness. But after a cold incident occured between them, Kazunari chooses to never put a faith with anyone else anymore.
This story reveal in how a guy who always known as a 'rotten apple in eye' try to rebuild his broken life again.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING, but the PLOT
I stopped right in front of the school gate and looked at behind me almost immediately. Sh*t. I should get out from here earlier.
“Let’s go home together.”
Jun offered after approaching me close enough. I can see his friends were whispering to each other behind except for Sho. He just smiled at me and nodded.
“No, thanks.” I lazily replied and headed out of the gate. Jun however seems not wanted to give up yet and immediately came to follow me with his friends.
“I’m not heading home, so stop stalking me.”
“I’m not stalking you. Plus, I need to know where you’re going after school every day.”
I abruptly stopped and gave him a glare. I almost opened my mouth to protest him, but one of his friends suddenly snorted and grabbed his arm.
“C’mon. You’re just wasting your time with him. He prefers to die alone than have a friend.”
“Or maybe...He has no friend?”
Correct.
“Guys, don’t say that. Maybe he feels awkward with us.”
Also 1 mark for you, Sho-san.
“Such a pathetic person.”
“I felt sorry for you to have him as your twins, Jun”
Jun looked like wanted to say something, but a sudden tap on my shoulder distracted me and those guys to look at our left.
“Glad to see you again!”
“Eh?”
They chorused including Jun. I still remembered his name; Aiba Masaki. But he wore a different school uniform.
“Are you free now? I want to treat you for saving me last night!”
Why he always looks so happy and excited? Well, none of my business.
“Kazu, who is-”
“Got to go.” I nodded at Aiba and left without looking back at Jun. Thankfully, Aiba immediately followed me without asking anything.
10 years ago.
It was raining like cat and dog. But my legs were too hurt and prevented me from getting up, so I just sat on the roadside while hugging my legs.
“Jun? What was going on?”
“Kazu...” I looked at him with my puffed eyes. I know I relied on him too much back then, but I had no one except for him. The boys in my class always come to bully me whenever I got praise or good grade in exams. The girls meanwhile felt too afraid to stop them as they didn’t want to get involved with my matter.
“They did it again?”
I nodded by Kazu’s question. Immediately, Kazu knelt down in front of me and seriously observed my injured knees. He then passed me his umbrella before turning to face me with his back.
“Let me carry you. We need to get home faster before Dad back.”
I hold the umbrella tightly in my hand and climb up his back. Along the way to home, Kazu tried his best to persuade and calm me down. Finally, I fell asleep on his shoulder after crying like hours before.
The next day, I came to the school like usual. Just when I slid open the classroom’s door, a bucket of cold water suddenly fell onto me. All my classmates laughed hardly before someone suddenly patted my back and gently pushed me aside.
“Whose idea is this?!”
Kazu! So he didn’t go to his class but followed me to come here!
“Any brat from the last class is not welcomed here! Just go back to your place!”
“Don’t judge us because of our grade! At least we have a feeling and not evil like you guys!!!”
“You called us evil?!!!”
And for the first time in the elementary school's history, a boy from the last class had a fight with almost the entire of A-class. Of course when the teacher came there, Kazu got all the blame to himself. I tried to tell the teacher about what was happening, but Kazu didn’t let me.
“Don’t worry. I’m fine.”
That was what he always says whenever he got scolded or punishments from the teachers. But I never saw him cried even once. He whole heartedly came to protect me and always there when I need someone. But I know that was also the reason why he has no friends. People were too afraid to approach him and adults always think he just a rotten apple brat.
5 years later, we finally graduated from the hell elementary school. And because of my good grades, I got an offer to study at some famous prestigious school while Kazu went to the nearby middle school. Even though, nothing has changed between us. We still played and hang out together during the weekend since I lived in the school dorm. Till one day...
“Miyamoto-kun, wanna come with us?”
“No, thanks.” I smiled and packed my stuffs into my school bag. My classmates are nice now, but I always refuse to hang out with them especially on weekend.
“Come on, we have not enough guys here.”
“But-”
“No buts.” And they immediately dragged me out from the class to the nearby bowling place. That was my first time to come there and even to touch the ball. And as the time passed by, I became so close with them. Bit by bit I forgot about Kazu who always alone at home and school, I forgot about my promise to call him every day and the most importantly; I forgot how hard he tried to protect me from those bastards before. And guess what? The flown didn’t stop until I reached my senior year in Junior High School.
“I’ll get all strike for this time!!!”
“Only in your dream maybe.”
“That’s mean J-!”
“Jun?”
All of us abruptly stopped. Right in front of us, Kazu was looking back at me with his shocked eyes before his lips slowly curved with a smile. He tried to approach me, but I did a very BIG mistake.
I stepped back.
“You know him Jun?”
My friends questioningly looked at me. Usually I will say ‘yes’ without feeling hesitant at all, but now my mouth suddenly felt like being locked. I didn’t know what to say as I realized my friends were terrified with Kazu. With his arms and face full with scratches and plasters, it was understandable if they were feeling that way.
Then Kazu also stepped back.
“S-Sorry. Wrong person.”
And he turned around without looking back anymore.
“Jun?”
Sho’s voice brought me back to the reality. I immediately turned to him beside me.
“We reached your home already.”
I looked at my front and sighed. Maybe I was flying too far before.
“You remembered it again?”
I nodded. Sho was the only person that I trust and know about it. He always gives me some advice or suggestion on how to get closer with Kazu again.
“I’ll see you tomorrow again.” I smiled and waved at him. He returned my smile before bid me a Goodnight and left.
~*~*~*~
“See you again!”
Aiba excitedly waved his hand and headed to his own way. After he lost from my sight, I finally turned around and walked to the opposite direction. Well, we hold nothing special or fun conversation actually. And it’s more like he was talking alone for all the time since I didn’t pay attention with what he said at all.
...Phew! I don’t know, but...I feel a clump of happiness with his last sentence before he leaves me. Well, it had been a long time since I have someone who is not scared of me and-ARGHHH!!! CUT THE CRAP KAZUNARI! STOP BEING SO EMOTIONAL!
I slapped my face lightly for few times and realized that I already reached home. When my hand almost touched the doorknob, I can hear dad and Jun were laughing together inside.
Crap.
“Kazunari!”
Dad immediately stood up as I entered and hoped off my shoes. I however just pretended like usual; took my shoes into the cabinet and walked pass them on the couch.
“Where had you been?! Why coming home this late?!”
Dad suddenly came to block my way. I meanwhile just looked at the other side and acted like nothing serious happened.
“Jun just showed me all your exam sheets! Why did you leave all the answer in the blank?!”
Now I know where Jun’s questioning habit was inherited from.
“I’M ASKING! YOU’RE NOT DUMB RIGHT?!”
“I AM DUMB!” I angrily returned dad’s look. My hands were trembling hardly due to my angriness. “I AM DUMB DIDN’T I?! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT!”
And what I remembered after that, Dad gave a very hard slap on my face. Fortunately I am a guy or I’ll burst with cry right there.
“HOW DARE YOU RAISE YOUR VOICE WHEN YOU’RE SPEAKING TO YOUR OWN FATHER?!!!”
“Oh, come on! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO START IT FIRST!”
Owh, seems Dad is so angry too. I can see his face slightly turn to red and the hand he used to slap me before is trembling.
“WHY CAN’T YOU BE MORE LIKE JUN?!”
That’s the question that I HATE most. I immediately stepped aside and walked pass Dad. Right before I climbed up the stairs, I stopped.
“Cause I’m NOT him.”
And I stomped on the stairs immediately. As I slammed my bedroom door close and leaned on it, I closed my eyes tightly. Why people always make a comparison between us? Why can’t they accept me just the way I am? Why they never see how hard I try to be a better guy? And why no one tries to lead me to the right path even though they keep telling me to change?
“Kazu?”
I heard Jun suddenly knocked behind. I just ignored it and picked the cutter from my table. Quickly, I stepped into the bathroom.
“Dad wasn’t in a good mood, you know. Just forget with what he said.”
I took my shower without taking off my clothes and felt the coldness start to radiate on every part of my body. I left my bathroom door open, so I still can hear Jun’s voice clearly from outside. If Dad wasn’t in a good mood, why he was laughing with you before? I knew it. I ruined you guys’ mood.
“Kazu?”
I slowly slid out the sharp knife. As I put it on my pulse, I closed my eyes.
“Kazu, can you hear me?”
PANG! I released the cutter immediately onto the wet floor as my blood mixed with the nonstop plain water. My vision suddenly became blur and my legs felt numb maybe because of losing too much blood. I then fell hardly on the soaked floor and the last thing I saw was Jun slammed open my bedroom door and panicky ran into me.
~*~*~*~
>After this there will be more Jun's POV too. Comments will love!
Genre: Brotherhood, friendship, angst
Rating: G(Include curses and harsh words)
Summary: Having a brilliant and perfect fraternal twins who is 180 degrees different from him forced the 16 years old Miyamoto Kazunari to grow up with a harsh and cold treatment by people around. At first, he had Jun who's the only person that close to him despite of their uncommonness. But after a cold incident occured between them, Kazunari chooses to never put a faith with anyone else anymore.
This story reveal in how a guy who always known as a 'rotten apple in eye' try to rebuild his broken life again.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING, but the PLOT
Chapter 2: Regret
“Kazu, wait!”I stopped right in front of the school gate and looked at behind me almost immediately. Sh*t. I should get out from here earlier.
“Let’s go home together.”
Jun offered after approaching me close enough. I can see his friends were whispering to each other behind except for Sho. He just smiled at me and nodded.
“No, thanks.” I lazily replied and headed out of the gate. Jun however seems not wanted to give up yet and immediately came to follow me with his friends.
“I’m not heading home, so stop stalking me.”
“I’m not stalking you. Plus, I need to know where you’re going after school every day.”
I abruptly stopped and gave him a glare. I almost opened my mouth to protest him, but one of his friends suddenly snorted and grabbed his arm.
“C’mon. You’re just wasting your time with him. He prefers to die alone than have a friend.”
“Or maybe...He has no friend?”
Correct.
“Guys, don’t say that. Maybe he feels awkward with us.”
Also 1 mark for you, Sho-san.
“Such a pathetic person.”
“I felt sorry for you to have him as your twins, Jun”
Jun looked like wanted to say something, but a sudden tap on my shoulder distracted me and those guys to look at our left.
“Glad to see you again!”
“Eh?”
They chorused including Jun. I still remembered his name; Aiba Masaki. But he wore a different school uniform.
“Are you free now? I want to treat you for saving me last night!”
Why he always looks so happy and excited? Well, none of my business.
“Kazu, who is-”
“Got to go.” I nodded at Aiba and left without looking back at Jun. Thankfully, Aiba immediately followed me without asking anything.
~*~*~*~
10 years ago.
It was raining like cat and dog. But my legs were too hurt and prevented me from getting up, so I just sat on the roadside while hugging my legs.
“Jun? What was going on?”
“Kazu...” I looked at him with my puffed eyes. I know I relied on him too much back then, but I had no one except for him. The boys in my class always come to bully me whenever I got praise or good grade in exams. The girls meanwhile felt too afraid to stop them as they didn’t want to get involved with my matter.
“They did it again?”
I nodded by Kazu’s question. Immediately, Kazu knelt down in front of me and seriously observed my injured knees. He then passed me his umbrella before turning to face me with his back.
“Let me carry you. We need to get home faster before Dad back.”
I hold the umbrella tightly in my hand and climb up his back. Along the way to home, Kazu tried his best to persuade and calm me down. Finally, I fell asleep on his shoulder after crying like hours before.
The next day, I came to the school like usual. Just when I slid open the classroom’s door, a bucket of cold water suddenly fell onto me. All my classmates laughed hardly before someone suddenly patted my back and gently pushed me aside.
“Whose idea is this?!”
Kazu! So he didn’t go to his class but followed me to come here!
“Any brat from the last class is not welcomed here! Just go back to your place!”
“Don’t judge us because of our grade! At least we have a feeling and not evil like you guys!!!”
“You called us evil?!!!”
And for the first time in the elementary school's history, a boy from the last class had a fight with almost the entire of A-class. Of course when the teacher came there, Kazu got all the blame to himself. I tried to tell the teacher about what was happening, but Kazu didn’t let me.
“Don’t worry. I’m fine.”
That was what he always says whenever he got scolded or punishments from the teachers. But I never saw him cried even once. He whole heartedly came to protect me and always there when I need someone. But I know that was also the reason why he has no friends. People were too afraid to approach him and adults always think he just a rotten apple brat.
5 years later, we finally graduated from the hell elementary school. And because of my good grades, I got an offer to study at some famous prestigious school while Kazu went to the nearby middle school. Even though, nothing has changed between us. We still played and hang out together during the weekend since I lived in the school dorm. Till one day...
“Miyamoto-kun, wanna come with us?”
“No, thanks.” I smiled and packed my stuffs into my school bag. My classmates are nice now, but I always refuse to hang out with them especially on weekend.
“Come on, we have not enough guys here.”
“But-”
“No buts.” And they immediately dragged me out from the class to the nearby bowling place. That was my first time to come there and even to touch the ball. And as the time passed by, I became so close with them. Bit by bit I forgot about Kazu who always alone at home and school, I forgot about my promise to call him every day and the most importantly; I forgot how hard he tried to protect me from those bastards before. And guess what? The flown didn’t stop until I reached my senior year in Junior High School.
“I’ll get all strike for this time!!!”
“Only in your dream maybe.”
“That’s mean J-!”
“Jun?”
All of us abruptly stopped. Right in front of us, Kazu was looking back at me with his shocked eyes before his lips slowly curved with a smile. He tried to approach me, but I did a very BIG mistake.
I stepped back.
“You know him Jun?”
My friends questioningly looked at me. Usually I will say ‘yes’ without feeling hesitant at all, but now my mouth suddenly felt like being locked. I didn’t know what to say as I realized my friends were terrified with Kazu. With his arms and face full with scratches and plasters, it was understandable if they were feeling that way.
Then Kazu also stepped back.
“S-Sorry. Wrong person.”
And he turned around without looking back anymore.
“Jun?”
Sho’s voice brought me back to the reality. I immediately turned to him beside me.
“We reached your home already.”
I looked at my front and sighed. Maybe I was flying too far before.
“You remembered it again?”
I nodded. Sho was the only person that I trust and know about it. He always gives me some advice or suggestion on how to get closer with Kazu again.
“I’ll see you tomorrow again.” I smiled and waved at him. He returned my smile before bid me a Goodnight and left.
~*~*~*~
“See you again!”
Aiba excitedly waved his hand and headed to his own way. After he lost from my sight, I finally turned around and walked to the opposite direction. Well, we hold nothing special or fun conversation actually. And it’s more like he was talking alone for all the time since I didn’t pay attention with what he said at all.
...Phew! I don’t know, but...I feel a clump of happiness with his last sentence before he leaves me. Well, it had been a long time since I have someone who is not scared of me and-ARGHHH!!! CUT THE CRAP KAZUNARI! STOP BEING SO EMOTIONAL!
I slapped my face lightly for few times and realized that I already reached home. When my hand almost touched the doorknob, I can hear dad and Jun were laughing together inside.
Crap.
“Kazunari!”
Dad immediately stood up as I entered and hoped off my shoes. I however just pretended like usual; took my shoes into the cabinet and walked pass them on the couch.
“Where had you been?! Why coming home this late?!”
Dad suddenly came to block my way. I meanwhile just looked at the other side and acted like nothing serious happened.
“Jun just showed me all your exam sheets! Why did you leave all the answer in the blank?!”
Now I know where Jun’s questioning habit was inherited from.
“I’M ASKING! YOU’RE NOT DUMB RIGHT?!”
“I AM DUMB!” I angrily returned dad’s look. My hands were trembling hardly due to my angriness. “I AM DUMB DIDN’T I?! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT!”
And what I remembered after that, Dad gave a very hard slap on my face. Fortunately I am a guy or I’ll burst with cry right there.
“HOW DARE YOU RAISE YOUR VOICE WHEN YOU’RE SPEAKING TO YOUR OWN FATHER?!!!”
“Oh, come on! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO START IT FIRST!”
Owh, seems Dad is so angry too. I can see his face slightly turn to red and the hand he used to slap me before is trembling.
“WHY CAN’T YOU BE MORE LIKE JUN?!”
That’s the question that I HATE most. I immediately stepped aside and walked pass Dad. Right before I climbed up the stairs, I stopped.
“Cause I’m NOT him.”
And I stomped on the stairs immediately. As I slammed my bedroom door close and leaned on it, I closed my eyes tightly. Why people always make a comparison between us? Why can’t they accept me just the way I am? Why they never see how hard I try to be a better guy? And why no one tries to lead me to the right path even though they keep telling me to change?
“Kazu?”
I heard Jun suddenly knocked behind. I just ignored it and picked the cutter from my table. Quickly, I stepped into the bathroom.
“Dad wasn’t in a good mood, you know. Just forget with what he said.”
I took my shower without taking off my clothes and felt the coldness start to radiate on every part of my body. I left my bathroom door open, so I still can hear Jun’s voice clearly from outside. If Dad wasn’t in a good mood, why he was laughing with you before? I knew it. I ruined you guys’ mood.
“Kazu?”
I slowly slid out the sharp knife. As I put it on my pulse, I closed my eyes.
“Kazu, can you hear me?”
PANG! I released the cutter immediately onto the wet floor as my blood mixed with the nonstop plain water. My vision suddenly became blur and my legs felt numb maybe because of losing too much blood. I then fell hardly on the soaked floor and the last thing I saw was Jun slammed open my bedroom door and panicky ran into me.
~*~*~*~
>After this there will be more Jun's POV too. Comments will love!
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2/12/11 01:36 (UTC)Uwaa...It's still early to cry. There will be more after this!
Thank You SO much for reading!