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Title: Fixing My Future with the Broken Pieces of My Past
Genre: Brotherhood, friendship, angst
Rating: G(Include curses and harsh words)
Summary: Having a brilliant and perfect fraternal twins who is 180 degrees different from him forced the 16 years old Miyamoto Kazunari to grow up with a harsh and cold treatment by people around. At first, he had Jun who's the only person that close to him despite of their uncommonness. But after a cold incident occured between them, Kazunari chooses to never put a faith with anyone else anymore.
This story reveal in how a guy who always known as a 'rotten apple in eye' try to rebuild his broken life again.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING, but the PLOT

Chapter 7: The Harsh Past

RINGG!!!

And all the elementary school students cheerfully stormed out from their classes to their already awaiting parents outside of the school’s gate. I meanwhile still calmly packed all my textbooks into my bag before wear it and readily to leave my almost empty class.

“Hey! Let’s play baseball together after this!”
“Okay!”

Baseball? That’s my favorite sport!

“Can I join you guys?” I hopped happily toward the group of boys with a huge grin plastered on my face. They however made annoy faces and immediately backed off, looked extremely disgusted with me.

“Don’t come too near us, you silly! We don’t want your stupidity to get into us too! ”
“Yeah. Besides, my mom told me that I’ll be a bad boy if I play with you.”
“Come on guys. No need to waste your time with him.”

I gripped my hands tightly as they started to walk out of the class and left me alone. I tried hard to not cry by bit my lower lip and sadly walked out from there.

After I stepped out from the school’s area, I stood still outside of the school’s gate and waited for Jun. I just lowered my gaze for the entire time due of those unsatisfied and hateful glared that I received from everyone there. What kind of huge sins I’d done to them actually?

Kazunari-kun.”
I turned to my right and saw one of my girl classmates came to approach me with a huge grin.

“I’m going to hold my birthday party tonight. Make sure you’ll come over.”
“Eh? Is it okay for me?”
Un!”

Of course I felt more than happy by the invitation. I was about to open my mouth and said ‘Sure! Why not!’, but her mother suddenly came to approach us and touched her shoulders.

“Honey, I've told you that you can only invite your very close friends, right?”
“But Mom, Kazunari-kun-”
“I’m sorry Kazunari-chan. Let’s come over next time okay?”

And without waiting for my answer, her mother dragged her away from me. But I still can clearly listen to what she said to my classmate after that.

“Don’t get closer with that brat again. Do you understand?”
I saw my classmate looked at her wonderingly. The mother however just left it unanswered.

“Kazu~”

I turned to my back and saw Jun was hurriedly running to me with a smile. No, Jun mustn’t know about this.
Clumsily, I turned to the front again and rubbed my teary eyes.

“What’s wrong?”
“Um? Nothing at all.” I said as Jun already stood beside me with a frowned.
“But I saw you rubbed your eyes back then.”
“Dirt got into my eyes. Guess you ran too fast and make it all fly ne~” I said jokingly. Thanks God, Jun believe on my lie and laughed by it.

“Okay, let’s go home now.”

I hummed and holding hands with him like we usually did every day. Maybe cause Jun was right beside of me now, all the fluttered that I felt inside before immediately gone away. I even managed to ignore all the glares that I got back then and just cheerfully chitchatted with him like nothing happened around us.

“We’re home!”

Both Jun and I happily shouted after open the main door. Then, I saw Mom gladly came out from the kitchen and beamed a smile to us.

“Welcome home my boys.”

As Mom hugged tightly Jun’s small body, I immediately hopped off my shoes and putted it into the cabinet. I then walked pass them when Jun started to tell Mom about what was happening at the school today.

WellYep. It is kind of a routine in my life. Even though Mom said ‘my boys’, she will only concern about Jun and never gave me a hug after the day I've made a trouble at school. At first, of course I felt so sad about it. But the feelings gradually changed to a small matter in my life after some mere time.

As I placed my school bag on my study desk, the drawing that I made at the art class before suddenly came up in my mind. I excitedly took it out from my bag and grinned widely by the title on the top of the drawing paper.

Mom surely will love this!


Excitedly, I immediately stormed out from my room with my tiny hand still gripped on the paper tightly. But as I stepped on the top stairs, I abruptly stopped by mom’s words.

“And since you get first place in the class again, I bought this for you my dear Jun~”
“Yippee! Strawberry cake!”
“That’s right, my dear. And make sure Kazu will not find out about this okay?”

My eyes went wide. Why?

“But why?”
“Cause this is special for you only. So make sure to keep this as a secret between us, okay my dear?”

Why mom? Do you hate me that much? Do you think Jun is much better than me? Am I nothing to you at all?

I could feel my tears flew down to my cheek. Slowly, I stepped back from the stairs and got into my room. I quietly closed the door before brought back my gaze on the drawing that I just made this morning at school.

‘My Family’

The four of us were standing in front of a yellow house with a sun brightly shined on the right top of my drawing paper. My eyes went teary again as I saw all of us were smiling happily with one of my hands holding mom’s hand and the other one tingled with Jun.

But this will definitely only would be granted in my dream.

I then sadly crumpled the drawing and threw it into the rubbish bin next to my desk. Just when I was about to cry out, I heard footsteps sound were approaching my room. Clumsily, I stormed into the bathroom to wash my face.

Kazu?”
I heard Jun called for my name at the doorstep. I took a deep breath before came out with a smile.

“Yep. I’m here.” I shocked when Jun showed me a slice of half eaten strawberry cake.“This is for you. Make sure you’ll finish it.”

If I didn’t accidently overheard their conversation before, I will.

“Thanks, but I have no appetite to eat it.”

But somehow, I felt bad when Jun’s face suddenly changed to gloomy by my answer. As he looked at me half-begged, I finally let out a heavy sigh.

“Fine. But you must eat it too, okay?” And Jun smiled happily with an anxious nodded. I let out a chuckle by his action and shared my chair with him as he putted the cake plate on my study desk. After eating it happily together for about some minutes, Jun finally came out from my room with the empty plate hurriedly. He must be secretly brought it to me.

Gross.

And I quickly stormed back into the bathroom and threw up the entire slice I ate before. Even it was stubbornly stuck in my throat, I just forcefully dug it out using both my index and middle fingers. It wasn’t for me. So, OBVIOUSLY Mom didn’t want me to eat it back before too right?

I tasted nothing but the feelings of disgusted and disappointed.



Kazunari-kun?”

I felt someone suddenly shook lightly my body. Slowly, I looked up and saw Ohno’s face above.

“Are you alright?”
I nodded and rubbed my tired eyes. Crap. How long I’d been sleeping in the class?

“I told the teacher that you’re still not recovering from your fever yet, so he let you sleep in his class before.”
I nodded again as I saw no one in the class anymore except for the two of us.  Seemed the class already ended.

“Feel better now?” Ohno worriedly asked me and lent his help to put all my stuffs back into my bag. Should I say t-t-thaaannk yyyyo..u?

“Um, where’s Aiba?” Sh*t. Why the words that came out from my mouth is COMPLETELY different?

"He has training for today. And he told me to take care of you.”
Oh, I almost forget. Aiba is actually one of the school’s track athletes. And I also heard that Ohno is one of the art’s club members from the other classmates before.

“Are you feeling better now?”

I immediately jerked up from my own thought when Ohno’s back hand suddenly touched my temple.

“Yep, t-thank you.” PhewwFinally, I can say it.

“Masaki will buy some medicine for you after his training later. And he also said that you’re going to sleep on his bed tonight since we will only get the new bed for you tomorrow.” Perhaps Ohno realized that I’m going to protest it, so he continued immediately. “And he said; NO buts.”

He said it seriously while placing my school bag on the table. Then, he pulled the nearby chair from under the table and brought it next to me.

“Just sleep if you still feel tired Kazunari-kun. I’ll be here.”
I stunned when Ohno said it and beyond my expectation; sat on the chair. He even took out a book from his bag, smiled at me before started to read it on.

Why he and Aiba treated me so nicely like that? Didn’t I act harshly and even burden them to take care of me for this entire time? Plus, I’m totally a stranger who they barely knew two weeks ago.

Kazunari-kun, just-” And I saw Ohno stopped abruptly and looked at me in shocked. “What’s wrong? Did you feel hurt somewhere?”

He suddenly got up from the chair with his worried expression.

I don’t know. I can’t give any reaction at all. The tears keep flowing down to my chin and I am completely absent-minded with the reason why. Somehow, I feel so overwhelmed andhappy. There’s someone still cares about me even though I’m no one and just a bunch of useless scum in others’ eyes.

Kazunari-kun? What’s wrong really? Tell me.”

But NO.

I can’t let my guard down. I can’t trust anyone again. I can’t let myself being hurt for the twice time.

And I can’t bare the pain anymore. It was too hurt. It feels so sad when people always underestimated you. It feels so terrible when you are always being alone without encouragement from anyone to give you all their support from behind. But nothing is more hurting than when someone who’s the only one you have, leave you and let you alone to survive in this cruel world. It feels likeyou’re not deserved to be alive.

But I know it’s not Jun’s fault actually. And I realize how hard Jun tried to make up back with our relationship for this entire time. I did hear he called for my name timelessly when I stepped outside of the house before. But I had promised to myself about something before, so I can’t turn backanymore.

Not, even once.

“I-I,”
“Yes?” Ohno worriedly looked at me.

“I’m fine.”

No, I’m not.

“But-”
“Thank you, but I’m really fine. J-Just got something into my eyes. Guess I need to use the washroom.” I didn’t let Ohno to ask further by stormed out from the class immediately.

I had no idea where I’m heading to. Those memories make me felt completely afraid with anyone and it kept playing in my mind over and over again.

Just when I got a bit of my consciousness, I already stood on the school rooftop.

My knees were shaking. My hands were trembling. And my face is damp with tears.

As I knelt on the rooftop, I screamed out till the top of my lungs.

Why me, God?

~*~*~*~


>Like always; comments and criticism for improvement are love!

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6/12/11 14:14 (UTC)
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Posted by [personal profile] coolohoh
wow you're fast... i just read finish chapter 6 and 7 is out already XD
waiting for the next one :)

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7/12/11 03:31 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
Hahaha. I'm not fast at all ^^"
Thank You SO much for reading!

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6/12/11 14:27 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] abs-vanness.livejournal.com
ohhhh, kazu, i'm hurting too...
i know your family but they always hurt you...
the most trusted people are your own family, and if those trust were broken, you can't trust anyone anymore...
i'm loving this fic!!! i'll will always follow this till the end.
tnx for the story~

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7/12/11 03:41 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
That's why Kazu needs time to open his heart again...
Yeay~ Thank you for loving this. Please keep following!
And Thank You SO much for reading!

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6/12/11 15:10 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] therecklessgirl.livejournal.com
T________T Nino's story is so sad

Thanks for sharing, will be waiting for the next one!

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7/12/11 03:46 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
That's why he can't trust anyone anymore :(
Thank You SO much for still following and reading!

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6/12/11 15:48 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] lakukuli.livejournal.com
You're fast, and I'm really thankful for that
How could his mother say something like that?
I can totally understand Kazu's feelings and his distrust on people, if your own parents treat you like that what can you expect from others?

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7/12/11 03:52 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
I'm not fast :) Actually I think that I am super slow.
Yap, agree with you. The first people that children trust are their parents and if something like that happened...*sigh*
Thank You SO much for reading!

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6/12/11 16:44 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] mardhiyah-87.livejournal.com
heart breaks (T_T),
i'm sorry for Kazu...n Jun,
because of the parents...awww *sniff*
thanx a lot n u're so fast :)

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7/12/11 04:02 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
Kazu and Jun are actually 'victims' of their parents act...
I think I'm super slow, you know. Thank You SO much for reading!

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6/12/11 22:16 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] racanai.livejournal.com
Love this chapter! All of Nino's hurt... I hope he will open up to Ohno and Aiba soon!

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7/12/11 04:04 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
Let's hope he will! Glad you like this chapter X)
Thank You SO much for reading!

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7/12/11 02:34 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] tsuki42.livejournal.com
Poor Kazu~ D: I feel like hugging him! He's so lonely... I hope he cheers up with Aiba and Ohno's support~
Thanks for the update~! :D

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7/12/11 04:10 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
Yep! Lets hope so! :D
Thank You SO much for reading too!

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7/12/11 02:43 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] momokan69.livejournal.com
They're so cruel to Nino... TT____TT
No wonder it makes him hard to trust other people anymore... (>x<)
Though I'm hoping he could be more open to Ohno and Aiba, because seems like Ohno and Aiba helping heartily
Looking forward to the next! Thanks for the update! (^ ^)

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7/12/11 04:19 (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] 24iza-run.livejournal.com
Hope Ohno and Aiba can do something to make him trust them :)
Will update soon! Thank You SO much for reading!

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